Finding me

This week has been one of the worst weeks of my life! I have never been so unmotivated, unfocused, depressed, lifeless, confused, lost...well, you get the point. In short, it was a bad week. But in the midst of my (self-induced) darkness, I realized God was merely attempting to get my attention. Well not merely...He knew allowing me to go through "the fire and the water" was unfortunately going to be the only way He could have my undivided attention.
 
 These past few weeks, months, years even, I'd been so busy planning my life that I hadn't consulted Him to get His opinion, thoughts, or approval. Now don't get me wrong -- I'd been talking to Him, but that was part of the problem. I was talking TO Him but not with Him, nor was I listening to what He might have been saying and I definitely hadn't been providing Him with opportunities to lead, direct and guide me by His responses. So this week amidst tears, tissues and major temptation, I learned to wait. To be still. To listen to the still small voice that has been trying to get my attention for quite some time. And guess what? He led me here...isn't God good?
 
 So we'll see where this journey takes us. I hope you'll join me, that you'll enjoy the process and most importantly that you'll be blessed by what is shared in this blog. Feel free to respond.
 
 In Christ,
 SistaV

Originally posted on: February 6, 2009